Its complicated.

We spent the weekend at Angels moms house. It was fun, although i'm ready to have our own place over there because i just dont like staying at peoples houses. I didnt mind it so much pre-baby, but now that we have Emma- its just easier to be at a place where all her stuff is. Where shes comfortable. & i know his family doesnt understand, they don't try to. But shes my baby, I know whats best for her, and i'm going to continue doing what i do because i'm a great mother- and if everyone needs to see where only where their coming from; then thats on them.

i can not excatly tell you how many times i've heard "Why arent her ears pierced?" and "she'll like it better if you do it now." and "why are you waiting, thats crazy!" ONE SENTENCE: SHES MY DAUGHTER. BACK OFF. you're grown now, YOUR kids are grown, you raised them the way that made you happy, Now i'll raise my daughter the way i'd like. Something tells me she won't completely hate me when shes 3 and realizes her ears arent pierced. geez.

& another thing, SHES NOT FAT. shes 5 months and barely doubled her birth weight. she weighed 9lbs3oz at birth. Shes going to be a slightly bigger baby, but that doesnt give anyone the right to say shes fat. Ses normal, & healthy. I couldnt be more proud. Someone even said today that she had cottage cheese. Wow. I coulda freaked, but I try to be respectful, even though some other people don't even try.

Man, that was a bit of an angry rant. :/

So I got another tattoo this past friday. It says ANGEL and its on my lower forearm. I really like the font, and it looks nice where its placed. I serioulsy would of never belieced anyone 2.5 years ago if they said i'd have a baby, be madly in love and getting ready to move out. I'd probably call them crazy. Yes, this was not my plan. It was actually the complete opposite. But fate took brought us together, and my heart begged me to stay. It was the best decision of my life. Angel is so good to me, I dont think I would of found anyone as good as him. & even if there is someone else, their definitly not as good looking :] & without Emma, I wouldnt be as happy. Yes, angel&I have our bad days, and on those days I just look at my baby and I am reminded that I love Angel & I love love love our little girl.

I dont know if i've mentioned it before, but shes sitting up by herself now. When I put her on her tummy, it doesnt even look like shes close to crawling. But it seems like it all happens over night with her, literally. one night she wakes up 5 times to eat, the next night- sleeping 10 hrs straight. one day she cant sit for the life of her, the next day all she wants to do is sit. one day shes eating 4 oz every 2 hrs- the next day 6 oz every 3-4 hrs.

Shes simply amazing.