Pool Time.

Emma, Angel and I all had so much fun at the pool today. The water was perfect.

my girl is getting so big. Shes growing into her own little person, and it kind of makes me sad. I'm glad getting the baby number 2 itch! I want a little boy. But I knw we're not ready, so im smart enough not to try. We're going to bakersfield on sunday evening, and moving into our apartment Monday morning. we have an appointment at 9am to sign the lease and pick up the keys.

Other than that good news, the rest is all bad news. My family has all of a sudden come forward saying they dont like angel. He controls me. ? But when I ask for one excample of a time where we made me do something I didnt want to do, of course they cant come up with it. Its really hurting me because my family is all ive ever had, before I found angel. Hes good to us, he takes care of me and emma. I'm in love with this man. I'm going to marry him.

My family is the very out spoken type. angel is the quiet, stick to himself type. And I think that plays a huge roll in this. They want him to open up to them, but why would he? their mean to him. I just cant believe this is happening. angel and emma are my family now. They come first.

But, still, its making me so sad.

Its been a long while.

I'm using my moms computer right now, because we currently dont have internet, so I'm usually getting on with my phone.

Everything is going okay. We got an apartment in bakersfield, arvin. I'm nervous for this change in my life but I know I have to atleast try. For Emmas sake. She deserves the best, on top of whats the best for me. She comes first now. So, I will try, and I hav a feeling ill have to try really hard.

Emma ia going great! Shes 7 months and 1 week old. Shes crawling and getting into everything! Shes weighing in at 22pounds. my big girl! i love her to pieces. She brings such happiness to my life, I just couldnt imagine it without her. I think I was born to be a mother. I just looked over, and she woke up fromher nap with the biggest smile. It doesnt get any better than this.

I'll try to keep on updateing, but its hard on my phone. We should have internet soon, though.