my girl is getting so big. Shes growing into her own little person, and it kind of makes me sad. I'm glad getting the baby number 2 itch! I want a little boy. But I knw we're not ready, so im smart enough not to try. We're going to bakersfield on sunday evening, and moving into our apartment Monday morning. we have an appointment at 9am to sign the lease and pick up the keys.

Other than that good news, the rest is all bad news. My family has all of a sudden come forward saying they dont like angel. He controls me. ? But when I ask for one excample of a time where we made me do something I didnt want to do, of course they cant come up with it. Its really hurting me because my family is all ive ever had, before I found angel. Hes good to us, he takes care of me and emma. I'm in love with this man. I'm going to marry him.

My family is the very out spoken type. angel is the quiet, stick to himself type. And I think that plays a huge roll in this. They want him to open up to them, but why would he? their mean to him. I just cant believe this is happening. angel and emma are my family now. They come first.

But, still, its making me so sad.